Happiness 幸福的感觉

Life is such that you will never know what is happening next. Just yesterday was those painful thoughts although I said never to give up on the one who touches your heart; no matter how much time it takes to bring back the days. I was frankly expecting is a long drawn battle but thing could really take a change.

The feeling had to be so strong in past days to drill in me that you should always treasure the one you loved, never wait till is too late. Asking for an answer can be damaging now because knowing the personality and the 5 months break; but I chose to ask. I wrote the sms that if the answer is a No, I would rather it be now than later. I do not wish to live in false hope because it would end up more painful when it finally comes. If it is a Yes, then it would give me the strength to stay on. The feeling of awaiting a sentence or probably none is beyond other's comprehension.

Hour passed till I was nearly giving up for a reply, then the phone beeped with a new message. Free till 5 today. The usual simple and short message that gave no clue to an answer. Pick up the phone and arrange to meet but the heart was racing like a first date. Anticipating the worst at the meeting but praying for the best.

When both were in the car, did the usual of reading the magazine without a hint of the decision. I finally broke the silence and share my feeling. The smile came as I said I don't understand that it was normally for others to take an instruction; but it has to be the opposite when is between us. Is clear in the past I do not have any bargaining power before the person I love dearly. I only wanted happiness for the one I love; even if it meant I have to stand aside.

Can I still call you dear? You can call anything you want - came the answer. I said that dear has a special meaning from me. The smile reappears. Certainly is clear that I would never have an upperhand between us and I never wanted it. Is the love and the person that I want. The final nod makes my world turns and happiness suddenly settle on me. Never did I expect the return of the romance so fast. It showed no progress in the past weeks; but then I thought my past days' efforts of speaking my feeling did pay off.

Whatever pain I felt just yesterday now disappears. The joy in me clearly shown on my face as we had the first meal together since 5 months ago. I believe after all the unpleasant setbacks in the past months, the one up there has finally looked at me again. This gain has surpassed whatever I lost in the past months and I believe that the lady of luck will shine on me once more.
Now it shows truly that if you don't give up in what you believe in love, happiness will finally be yours. True Love really lives forever.

悲欢离合，阴晴圆缺；人生的下一步你永远捉摸不定。昨日的心痛今早尚在，虽然说过不会放弃那个触动自己心的人，不管付出什么；却也认为这是场持久战。但是事情总在一霎那间就改变了。

过去几天， 那种惜缘，珍惜所爱的人的强烈感觉一直围绕着脑海。了解其个性和分开的五个月，去要求一个答案根本是冒险，但是我还是选择知道答案。通过简讯，我说如果没有希望，我宁愿现在痛苦，也不愿活在幻想中，以后的痛苦会加倍。如果有个希望，那将是我坚持的动力。那种等待判决，或是更本没有答复的心境是外人所不能了解的。

时间的流逝让我对于答复趋于绝望时，手机哔的显现新讯息。到五点有时间；简短到让人无法捉摸。约了见面，但心跳加速如初次约会一般。做了最坏的打算，却祈祷最好的结果。

车上依然故我，翻阅着杂志，没有任何暗示。最终自己打破了沉默，说出了内心的感觉。说着不知为何每当我们两人时， 我永远那么无助；平时习惯对人发号施令在此时只有等候命令的宿命。 那个熟悉的微笑出现了；因为事实一直就是如此。说着我只希望所爱的人幸福，就算自己必须离开跑道。

还可以叫你亲爱的吗？你要怎么叫也行 - 就是这样的答案。我说我口中的亲爱的代表着特别的意义；那个微笑再次显现。显而易见我从来不要在我们之间占上风，我要的只是那个人的爱。一个含蓄的最终点头让我的世界重新旋转，幸福的感觉突然降临。从未想过能如此迅速重拾旧爱；因为过去数星期不曾有过进展。我相信过去数天的心里话终于有所回报。

昨日所有的疼痛现在全消失了。脸上的笑容在我们分开五个月后的第一次用餐时久久不散。经历过去数月的挫折，上面的那位终于看到我了。今天的所得超越了数月前所失去的，我相信幸运之神就将重新眷顾我一般。

这证明了如果你不放弃所相信的真爱，幸福终于会到来。真爱真的永远不息。