Pain in the Heart 心痛

I reckon everyone went through the stage being in pain, physically and mentally. Physical pains will heal over time but mental pains can go a long way. When you fall or bleed, the pain is instant and at times overwhelming but such pain will fade when you are attended to medically. However, pains suffered mentally is like a cut right in the heart, definitely so huge that you can get carried away. Some said such pain will heal over time, although longer but to those who suffered such pain, it can be everlasting.

You pain when you lose someone physically. The pain I had last night came as a shock but was a mild pain in the heart, the type that you probably sob in the heart but not shown physically. When dad left couple of years ago, that pain is much more devastating. Though mentally prepared, it still hurt deeply when it came. The news came at night, picked up few clothes and rushed to the airport in morning. The 2 hours flight seems everlasting. Hit the airport and took a cab right to the hospital. My family was already there and dad was on ventilator. He was not responsiveness but I knew within him, he knew by then everyone was by his side. I knew he was worried for all; saw the hard breathing state and whispered in his ears that we would take care of ourselves. And hour later, he left with a smile on his face. That pain was more heart-breaking, like needles picking the heart. Tears in the eyes but I knew it was a storm in the heart. Is even more unbearable when you could not show it before our devastating mom.

If you ever felt betrayed, you probably knew the pain in you; even more when the person was someone closed. The sense of betrayal could be for work, relationship and others. It would be like salt on the wound if you were double-crossed by someone close to you. Remember the naiveness when fighting a battle for your pals, you thought you had braved the hardship together and you were most willing to do almost anything for them. When the battle triumphed, it was everyone's credit but when it failed, you would be the first offering on the table. That pain is regret plus disgust; if it involved someone close, you need to add another 100%. You will tend to have the feeling of a revenge if you could then. If the betrayal is over a relationship, the pain will be more detrimental in nature; is like the world suddenly stopped revolving but you still would pick up after some times.

The pain is the greatest when you lose someone you love mentally. When you break off in a romance, the world suddenly breaks apart if the person is one who touches your heart. If deep down there was real feeling, a break-up would hurt both badly. People teased that a misunderstanding kicks off a romance and an understanding kills it. If you parted with good understanding, the pain will probably ease but if you parted with a misunderstanding, the pain is hard to overcome. I hate gossips since young and it was what these words that caused me to sink into sorrow lately. It took us 5 months to start a conversation to realise that what some red-eyed monsters can caused big problems. Knowing words hurt, such people would not hesitate to use all available in their vocabulary. The pain was unbearable like a knife pierce through the heart when you broke up; is a second knife to add on when you knew later that the break-up was a plot, was uncalled for.

5 months of parting did not make us stranger but damaging enough for the flame to tone down. When you found the one who touches your heart in love and in pain, never give up and treasure it when the one is still around. It would probably take sometime to rekindle the flame and to build the confidence； but because it had rooted itself within, whatever the cost would be, it would have to go forward.

True Love never ends with living together happily ever after; True Love never ends. It lives forever. This is the only way to redeem the pain suffered.

痛会伴随每个人成长的阶段，不管是肉体上或心灵上。肉体上的疼痛会随时间流失；心灵上的痛却是历久常新。跌倒了，流血了；那种痛是即时的，有时也是难耐的。但是它会在你接受一些医药料理后慢慢消失。心灵上的痛却像是在心中割了一刀，它的痛楚常常让人匪夷所思。有人说这种痛虽然时间长，最后也会愈合；但是对于深陷其中的当事人，这种痛也许会持之永恒。

当你失去一个人时，你会痛；就像昨晚那样的痛，来的突然却是心中幽幽的那种痛。你可能会心中默默的流泪却不会嚎啕大哭。当爸几年前离去时，那种痛是痛彻心肺的。虽然心里有所准备，来时却还是疼痛难忍。晚上接到消息，早上匆匆拿了几件衣服赶到机场。两小时的行程好像无尽头似的。机场一路到医院，全家已经聚集，爸没什么反应。但我知道他已经知晓大家都到了，我了解他始终不放心。看着他辛苦的呼吸着，忍不住在他耳边轻说我们会照顾自己的。一会儿他带着微笑走了。那时的痛是那么的大，像无数针往心里刺一般。眼中的泪无法抵御心中的暴雨，当你无法在崩溃的妈面前表露时越是如此。

如果你曾经让人出卖过，你会知道这种痛；尤其是被身边的人出卖时。被背叛的感觉可能源自工作或人际关系。当被自己人背叛和出卖时，就犹如在伤口上撒盐。记得天真的为所谓知己背水一战，当你认为大家曾经同甘共苦过，当你毫无保留的付出时。胜利是大家的，失败是自己的；那种痛是悔恨加不屑。如果是身边人所为，痛楚则是百倍，而你也会有复仇的心态。如果被背叛的是一段感情，那种痛会让你觉得世界突然间停止了转动；但是你会在时间的呵护下重新站起来。

最大的痛楚源自在心理上失去心爱的人。当你从一段刻骨铭心的恋情中分裂出来，就好像世界被拨开两边一样。如果内心的感情恒久而真，一段破裂的恋情将让两人痛苦。人们常说‘因误会而开始，因了解而分手’。如果你是真的因为了解而分手，那种痛会消散；但是如果因为误会而分手，那种痛是无法忘怀的。很讨厌长言流短的闲话， 它让我最近痛苦万分；五个月的长时间让我们从新在网上聊起，才知道有些红眼怪在搞破坏。虽然人们知道言语有时胜过千军万马，有些人就不吝啬于言语破坏。失去所爱的痛如一剑刺穿心， 当你知道一切皆是人为和误解，就如第二把剑穿过一样；无辜的去承受着巨大的痛楚。

五个月的分开虽然不致把我们变为陌路，但却也让情冷却。当你找到一个牵动你心，又会让你痛彻心肺的人时；不能放弃，要珍惜眼前人。虽然要努力才能让爱火重燃，让信心重建；但是面对一段始终无法忘怀的感情，不管前面的路多难走，也没有退路。

真爱不会如童话一般幸福生活的结局；真爱没有结局。真爱不息，这是对先前的痛的补偿。