Sentimental 伤感

The news I received last night stayed in my mind till this moment; when I first heard it, it was a sense of sorrow or I could not actually describe it. B had passed away in an accident just 5 days into the new year. I did not get to know it until now; in fact all of us only knew it this moment. The family did not inform anyone until it was all over.

B is not just a passer-by to me, but someone who had witnessed part of the changes in my life; in fact the first person I knew as a friend when I came to a new place years ago. When I first stepped foot into that vibrant city, I was not lost but as sentimental as now. I went there after an earlier sad episode and decided to take a break. B made a friendly move and we were become friends. I was shown around the new place and settled down quickly, all thanks to B.

B had a playful personality and always mindful of people's opinions. The uneventful grown-up stage made B trying hard to gain an extra mile whenever possible in all things. Some people thoughts that was calculative or even ploting at times. But knowing the past, I fully understand the way B was.

For the last 2 years, we had not been in touch much because I was too busy at works and B was for one reason or another, staying away from the usual scenes. Few people knew except B had gone back to the grandparents.

Although that, it still hurts me badly when the news came. To me, it was so unexpected and sad that B left without anyone's knowing. The family thoughts for a span of 25 years for B, it would be better to cut short the sorrow for the living elders.

It was definitely a sad way to start off a new year, when my mind was still tinkling with thoughts of a tv drama the previous night when the lead actor cried that he was helpless as a doctor to see people he loved left one after another. I did not think I would almost be in the same shoe just less than 24 hours later. I don't think I could do much for B but at least if we had knew, we could have seen to the last journey; although I knew we had to respect the wish of the family.

Now I pray that a better life awaits B. It made me realised that one has to cherish the people around him before it's gone forever. SMS

昨晚收到的消息到今天还留在我脑海里。刚听到时，不相信的打了几个电话去确定；确定了留下的只有伤感或是说不出的感觉。毕在新年的第五天因为发生意外走了，周遭的人和我一样，都刚接到消息；毕的家人在一切过后才告知他人。

对我来说，毕不是我人生的一个过客，是一个见证了我的一些人生改变的朋友。毕其实是我来到一个新地方后所认识的第一个朋友。几年前来到一个繁华城市，心情不是迷失而是同样的伤感。之前一段不愉快的经历让我决定到那里休息一阵子。毕的友善让我们成为了朋友；毕的帮助也让我在那个城市中迅速安定下来。

毕的性格好玩，但是介意别人对自己的看法。毕的不愉快成长过程让其在任何时刻都想抢占先机；有人认为毕计较太多，有人认为心机太重。但是我对毕的了解，让我知道为何每个机会对毕都那么重要。

过去的两年，我们很少联系；因为我工作繁重，毕也因自己的理由避开了原有的朋友．最后大家得知的是毕回到了祖父家去了。

虽然如此，听到消息时，心理难过万分。对我而言，消息来得突然，难过的是毕走得无人知晓。毕的家人不想在世的白头人为毕短暂的２５年再有伤感。

这样的新年真的无所适从；之前心里还在想着前晚电视剧里，身为医生的男主角哭着说讨厌看着心爱的人一个一个离去而自己无能为力。想不到没到２４小时，我自己就感同身处；有时不免想着人生如戏。自己纵然不能为毕做些什么，但是如果早些得知，或许就能送毕最后一程；虽然自己也尊重毕家人的做法。我只能祈祷毕会有一个更好的来世。

大家都应该珍惜眼前人，等到失去了就太迟了。切记惜缘。